It's about being caught in the middle.
Exactly where I find myself at so much of the time.
A song about wanting what God has for me, but not wanting to give fully of myself.
I find myself in these ruts, and they seem to come in cycles - they are gone for a few months at a time and then come back for a few months at a time.
Life gets crazy, my priorities get messed up, I get tired, routines are shot, I get stressed.
And I wonder why. I look for answers.
I blame it on so many other things.
But really, I know my problem.
Every time I stray away from God, my life gets crazy.
It's as if he is gently and sometimes more BOLDLY reminding me that I can't do this on my own.
He WANTS to do it. And he can do it all.
And I want that. I think about all the things I SHOULD be doing differently.
I think about the commitment I need to be making to grow in his Word.
But then I don't. Or I do it only half-way.
Which brings me back to this song...
Somewhere between the hot and the cold
Somewhere between the new and the old
Somewhere between who I am and who I used to be
Somewhere in the middle, You'll find me
Somewhere between the wrong and the right
Somewhere between the darkness and the light
Somewhere between who I was and who You're making me
Somewhere in the middle, You'll find me
Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender without losing all control
Fearless warriors in a picket fence, reckless abandon wrapped in common sense
Deep water faith in the shallow end and we are caught in the middle
With eyes wide open to the differences, the God we want and the God who is
But will we trade our dreams for His or are we caught in the middle
Somewhere between my heart and my hands
Somewhere between my faith and my plans
Somewhere between the safety of the boat and the crashing waves
Somewhere between a whisper and a roar
Somewhere between the altar and the door
Somewhere between contented peace and always wanting more
Somewhere in the middle You'll find me
Just how close can I get, Lord, to my surrender without losing all control
Lord, I feel You in this place and I know You're by my side
Loving me even on these nights when I'm caught in the middle.
It makes perfect sense.
Deep water faith....in the shallow end.
The God I want...and the God who is.
Somewhere between my heart and my hands.
Somewhere between the altar and the door.
Somewhere between contented peace and always wanting more.
I feel very much lost in the middle.
And then I feel attacked when I get lost in thoughts about how middle the lonely is.
I look around me and am surrounded with so many who I feel have it all together, have such rich relationships with the Lord, who are so disciplined.
But then I am reminded that even in these weak times - even when I'm caught in the middle.
My God loves me just the same.
His love is unconditional.
His love is unchanging even when my habits and my priorities are all over the place.
Even when I'm caught in the middle - he loves me just the same.
So today I went looking for some scripture that I can rest on as I work to move from this middle ground.
To stir me and make me more than just luke-warm.
I'm reminded in James 4:8 that if I will draw near to Him, he will draw near to me.
I don't have to HOPE he will be there when I get there.
I KNOW he will, and when I draw near, I know he'll pull me closer and closer.
And in 2 Corinthians 12: 9 and 10, I'm reminded that his power is made perfect in my weakness.
So why not boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses...so that the power of Christ my rest upon me.
I can be content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities.
Because when I am weak, He is strong.
In The Message it reads this...
"My grace is enough; it's all you need.
My strength comes into its own in your weakness.
Once I heard that, I was glad to let it happen. I quit focusing on the handicap and began appreciating the gift. It was a case of Christ's strength moving in on my weakness. Now I take limitations in stride, and with good cheer, these limitations that cut me down to size—abuse, accidents, opposition, bad breaks. I just let Christ take over! And so the weaker I get, the stronger I become.This is just what I need during these times that life that I just feel so weak."
This is just what I need during these times I feel so weak.
And then a promise that is speaking to me so much is the one from Isaiah 26:3,
He will keep me in perfect peace when my mind is steadfast and trusts in him.
Ahhh, perfect peace.
That's exactly what I desire.
And I know that perfect peace ONLY comes from Him.
In all reality, I know I'm not the only one stuck in the middle.
Which is why I'm posting this today.
I wanted to share what I'm finding and learning in case it can help someone else that's stuck right where I am.
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