All week I've been thinking about how everyone is headed back to school.
And for the most part I've been quite relieved that I am not.
But then today, the first day of school....the day that my mind REALLY seems to be on school...thinking about all the teachers who are greeting their students for the first day of school, thinking about the smiles and energy that pass from staff member to staff member as you greet each other in the halls, and thinking about my friends who are at work today...and I'm not there.
The day that all of this is going through my mind....sure enough is the day that THIS went on here at home:
- Mason decided to wake up every 20-30 min. from about 5:30am on.
- When he did go back to sleep and I got him from his swing a couple hours later, he was soaked, his blanket was soaked and the cushion on the swing was soaked....not JUST with pee. Thank goodness that cushion detaches to be thrown in the wash!
- I tried to watch the finale of "So You Think You Can Dance"...I've been behind for weeks just waiting for a chance to sit down, relax and see who won....that chance finally arrived, and somehow the finale show didn't get recorded...so I STILL don't know who won...guess I should look on the internet tonight
- My ipod that Dave got me for my bday came today, he let me have it early...it doesn't work.
- Mason decided not to take a nap this afternoon....instead, just scream for a couple of hours.
Okay, I'll stop there, but I could go on...because it seemed like EVERYTHING went wrong today.
It's just funny that the ONE day I'm thinking lots about Slate Creek....is the day that I would MUCH rather be there as well!
But I knew from the beginning that this job as "mom" is MUCH tougher than any thing else out there. Even on the days that I was teaching, thinking "there is NO WAY I get paid enough to deal with this stuff!" and kidding myself that being at home with my kids would be SOOO much easier! Well, now I DON'T get paid ANYTHING!!
BUT, a good friend of mine in Premier just reminded me of this: "I know my highest calling and the best title I will EVER earn in my life is…”MOM!” That’s also the part of my life that I am the most proud of! The Lord has entrusted me with my precious kids and I owe it to HIM to do the best job I can! We will fail and we will be tired…and that’s normal! "
Being home is NOT easy, in fact it's trying almost every day! I have so much to learn still, and so much growing to do to become the best mom I can be. But I also know that home is where I'm suppossed to be.
The memories we make each day, the lazy mornings we have, the walks we take, the stories we read, the cuddling we do on the couch, the songs that we make up and dance to, the things we learn together and the moments that I DON'T have to miss out on.....all make it worth it.
Another bit of encouraging words that I just heard this week as well is...
"Anything wortwhile is NOT EASY"
So although I missed those 20 little happy faces coming into my classroom door to greet me this morning....tomorrow when I get my little ones from their cribs, I think I'll squeeze them just a little tighter...and thank God for allowing me to be able to be home with them each day.
6 comments:
Amen Sister! your words were very encouraging! keep on keeping on!
Enjoy those times!!!!! Even though Ollie's only 16 months, I start to realize that this time before school starts will go SO FAST! I'm sorry you had such a rough day--Mason was just testing you to make sure you were going to stay there this year! :-)
Okay, I mean, the time before HE goes to school--so yeah--these few years at home are SO precious!
Oh..how I remember those baby days and being a stay at home mom. And I secretly wished somedays to be back at my full time job. It is a huge sacrifice. I felt like I gave up a huge part of myself to give my world to them. But, it was worth it.
I can understand ALL of your feelings! I too, was sitting at home, thinking of everyone at Slate Creek. Unfortunately, I can't just drive down the road to see them anymore!! I love that I have the opportunity to be home with Braden and I wouldn't trade it, but there are certainly moments I miss that joy of teaching! We need to sympathize with each other more often! :)
I know how you feel about the nap times! When you have those tough days, remember last year and all of that you went through! You're doing what God wants you to do.
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